Lately, I've caught myself missing the way "things used to be." When Tyler and I could rent a movie on Friday night, stay up late watching it and sleep in late the next morning. When I could go to the grocery store (or lo and behold, the mall!) without it being a HUGE undertaking. Or when I could simply eat lunch, take a shower or go for a walk at the time I wanted to.
Don't get me wrong. You know I love my kids more than life itself. But I can't help the fact that these feelings have been running out lately like out of an unruly toilet. I think, as moms, whenever we have these feelings, we immediately start plunging. I know I do.
"I shouldn't feel this way!" "Being a mom is the greatest job on Earth!" "If I say this is too much, I'm not being a good mother!" "If I say something negative, I'll discourage others from having kids!"
But the other day, Heidi and I were tweeting about keeping it "real" on our blogs. And in an effort to do a better job at that, here's some honesty.
Sometimes it is too much. Sometimes I just want to get in bed at a decent time and sleep through the night and late into the morning. Sometimes I want to go shopping without the kids or without feeling bad that my mom has to watch them again. Sometimes I want to have the money to go shopping. Sometimes I want to take a long bath, or a nap, or watch a movie.
This morning Beth Moore tweeted something I needed at just the right time.
Thinking about you moms of young children this AM. How hard you work. How the years go by fast but a day can go so slow.— Beth Moore (@BethMooreLPM) April 18, 2012
Isn't that the truth? I know this time is fleeting and it's so special. But sometimes I feel it's wearing me too thin. And sometimes just having our work as mothers acknowledged by others (like in this tweet) is just what we need to keep going another day.
What about you? Do you struggle with any of these feelings? Do you feel bad to vocalize it? Are you brave enough to leave a comment? :)