This Beautiful Inheritance: My Dirty Little Secret

Friday, April 12, 2013

My Dirty Little Secret

Growing up, I read my Bible every night before bed. As a teenager, I remember my mom and dad coming in to tell me goodnight and saying how proud of me they were for always reading my Bible. I never really got that. Of course I read my Bible. I was a Christian girl, and that's just what Christians do, right?

When I went to college, I was introduced to the "Quiet Time." This was Bible reading, plus a journal, a pen, and an iPod playing Hillsongs. :-) ...I learned to really study God's Word, instead of reading it like a text book. I also grew tremendously in my relationship with the Lord during those years.

Making time to read my Bible, or to have a "quiet time," was never really an issue for me. I have always been a disciplined girl, and I was taught the importance of God's Word from the time I was a child.



However, when I had my second child, things changed. Something about going from one baby to two seemed to unravel much about me. I used to think I was neat and orderly. My house is now a permanent disaster. I used to think I was organized and efficient. I now forget things and disappoint people. And I used to have a regular quiet time. Now, most days, I slide by without one.

GASP! What?!

That's right. I'm letting the cat out of the bag... Sometimes -- honestly -- I feel like a phony. This blog, with its Biblical name and its Christian posts, really is an outpouring of my heart. I do love the Lord and I desire to make Him known. Yet I struggle with the most basic discipline of the Christian faith -- spending time in God's Word.

To me, there's always too much noise and too much to do, and I'll do it later when the kids are in bed... but then the kids are in bed, and I'm too tired for words, and oops. I missed another day.

Looking back on my life, I can see that I've never delighted in God's Word the way I should. I'm a very task-oriented person, and even when I was faithful to read, it was more of a mental box to check and cross off. I've always struggled with enjoying that quiet time, and I think that's why, when the going got too tough and the to-do list got too long, God's Word finally got shoved to the bottom.

I'm not sure what the purpose of this post is other than to air my dirty laundry and to honestly ask for advice. As a mom, do you struggle getting in God's Word? Do you make excuses? Are any of our excuses legitimate? Let's chat.


P.S. Today, I am actually heading to MomLife Bootcamp, a retreat for moms to relax, connect, learn and grow. I won a free bootcamp registration through Arkansas Women Bloggers and am so excited about this weekend of relaxation and pure Mommy Time! Also, I should have plenty of time to get in the Word :-)

P.P.S. Don't forget to enter my giveaway, going on until April 19! You could win "Prayers for Girls" or "Prayers for Boys" to help teach your little one how to pray.

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